CandleLight Fantasia

Just one more night

One more score

Another question in my mind,

can't take no more

Kissing the tears form my face asthey fall

To the ground in silencein twilight and faded timeSpirits cold,

with no love

Bells ring a lonely chime

Candle firesThese lit dreams can't burn alone

Winds of change bring songsupon my memory

An empty heart and soulintoxicates me

This darkened page orchestratesmy final destiny

Not knowing what,what tomorrow will bring

From within the mirrors eyes

I'm forced to run away and hide

I feel those mystic eyes subside

And leave my blind

Through passages in time

A prisoner locked behind the door

Lonely roses slowly wither and die

I can't escape this captive misery

Heart stone cold,

under supremacy

Thrown into a raging sea of tyranny

Life's vile walls have tangled me in threads

Eternally caught in my futures threads

Play the violent strings of my symphony

Transcend the absence of this fantasy

Just another vision

Washed away with the tide

No place for forgotten ones

I cannot deny

What lies beyond, beyond this fantasy

From within the mirrors eyes

I'm forced to run away and hide

I feel those mystic eyes subside

And leave my blind

Through passages in time

A prisoner locked behind the door

Lonely roses slowly wither and die

Hidup hidup

pelepasan perasaan yg tak dapat nak diungkapkan,
engkau takkan tahu bagaimana hati dan perasaan nih di simpan..
lama kelamaan..ia akan menjadi dendam...
sekarang mungkin kamu tidak dapat melihat nyer...
tapi satu hari nanti kamu pasti akan merasa...
perbuatan mu yg ku sangkakan slama betul rupa nya dusta semata2,
memang ko pandai bermain kata...sampai kita lelaki lupa dan menjadi alpa,

Tapi engkau perempuan jangan ingat kami lelaki ini bodoh selamanya
kita laki juga punya akal dan fikiran...
skali terkena, kamu ingat kami akan berdiam diri sahaja
kamu tak pernah berfikir apa yg kami fikirkan,
kamu tak pernah menghargai aper yg kami telah lakukan
aper yg engkau pikir kan hanya lah diri engkau sahaja..
lelaki yg bergelar Suami, Tunang atau pon Boyfren.
Apabila perkataan itu di sebut, kami menjadi lemah,
dan pada masa itu juga kepercayaan kami telah diberi kan pada dirimu
kami sanggup mati karana kamu perempuan yg kami laki sayang.
tapi aper yg telah engkau lakukan biler diberikan kepercayaan dan kebebasan
engkau senang2 menghancurkan nya
dan kamu thu aper sebab nya:
Kerna engkau hanya memikirkan diri engkau sahaja


P/s: kepada kawan ku saudara EHEM2(nama dirahsiakan)..aku bersimpati terhadap engkau dan tunang ko...tunang ko memang pompuan yg bodoh, tak tahu malu, tak sedar diri, bangsat, cilaka.pelacur, perempuan murahan...jangan nak salahkan orang lain cakap begitu kat ko...ko sendiri yg menjatuhkan martbat ko sebagai perempuan yg mulia kepada perempaun yg lagi hina dari anjing di tepi longkang...ko ibarat najis. bagi diri ku pertunangan itu satu langkah seblum pasangan itu mendirikan umah tangga...berusaha utk mencapai nya..nih tak...belum kawin dah main kayu 3...backup org ketiga itu....saper org ketiga tu...ko lebih sayang org ketiga tuh dari tunang engkau sendri...pikir laa..otak ader..saudara...engkau bagi ku memang telah mengambil satu keputusan yg bijak...perempuan sebegitu rupa memang tak ley diharap...aku cuma dapat mendoakan ko dapat berjumpa perempuan yg lebih baik dari pelacur tuh(tunang ko)

Tragedi Bulan December

kehilangan sesuatu itu mungkin amat memedihkan,
tapi aku tetap steady, sbb aku tau.
mungkin benda ini akan terjadi juga.
selagi 1 masalah itu tak selasai sampai biler2 pon ianya takkan selesai

aku bahagia berada disampingmu,
disisimu aku seperti menjadi seseorg yg baru.
tak pernah aku memikir satu masalah pon
kalu ader masalah pon, aku takkan bercerita dengan dirimu
aku tak mahu bersusah hati kerna aku. aku hanya mahu engkau bahagia
walaupon aku tau diriku ini akan sakit

tapi sayang skali, hubungan kiter tidak berkekalan,
aku tak marah pon, aku hanya menharap kiter still lagi bole menjadi kawan
itu pon terpulang pada diri kamu, aku tak boleh menghalang keputusan kamu
aku pon bukan nyer malaikat atau dewa..
aku nih manusia yg punya batas terhadap semua tindakan yg dilakukan
aku cuma merasakan apa yg aku lakukan ini, adalah yg terbaik utk diriku,

Apa yg ku pinta bukan nya banyak,
semua yg aku pinta itu adalah utk memastikan dirimu itu menjadi milik ku,
tanpa sebarang gangguan, tanpa ada sebarang halangan,
bersama mengecapi bahagia didunia sendiri.
akan tetapi keegoan diri seseorang itu melepasi batasan akal pemikiran seseorang itu.
aku terpaksa redha saja dengan apa sahaja yg kamu pinta, walaupon kamu tahu aku tidak suka,

kata2 mu yg terakhir yg mengata diriku ini bosan,
memang..aku memang bosan..kamu tak suka melihat kami bergaduh,
tapi aper yg kamu buat, utk mengelakkan dari sumua ini terjadi???

kater2 mu semalam membuat kan aku berfikir kembali:

Mengapa ini terjadi?
Apa yg dirinya risaukan??
adakah diri org ketiga itu lebih penting dari diriku ini???
Pihak manakah dirinya memihak??
adakah dirinya itu sayang akan diriku ini??
adakah dirinya itu sedang mempermainkan perasaanku ini??
Diriku ini hanya utk suka2 dikala dirinya bosan???
dan akhir skali,

Adakah Dirinya Pernah sekali pon memikirkan tentang perasaan diriku ini dan apa yg aku pikirkan?

dengan semua persoalan yg diatas.
aku telah membuat keputusan utk ....................................................

expression released

hye hye you....first of all, i
would like to say that i glad to know you.
this wonderful moment start from 3rd august until now,
i'll cherish it and i do mean it.
with all the fight, quarrel and disagreement we had.

we always fight for the same reason (MR E),
i know u'll notice it, coz everytime it does i'll never gonna want to see u again
u said its ur right, yes, i would have to agreed with that and i respect that
even since 30/10/2009, i had tried to respect your decision.
trying not to get mad, whenever u went out with other guy.
but FYI Mr E is not. he is not in my list of exception.

just for u to know.. i'm really happy when u said u still love me
i gave myself up and i gave myself a chance
u need a time. i gave u the time..
but still u didn't give the respect that i need
at the beginning i'll try to ignore it and it will become worst from time to time.

this is a simple fact.
do you know that a guy doesn't like his lover to talk about another guy xspecialy their ex
if you just love to make fun of ur ex in intention to make them felt misarable
and them told that thing to me, it is just not right
it is wrongful thing to be done.
if u said, eventhough , u've breakup and still want to be frens
i'm gonna agreed with that and i'll support u all the way.
every single time u said another guys name in front of me
u never realized my facial expression has change bcoz never have to bother about anyone else
u are full with ur self and never even bother to look around you
everything u said is about you, YOU,YOU and YOu
NOT EVEN ONcE ABOUT ME

Hye, I'm currently attached to you because u said u love me
that is all that really matter
as time pass by, i realized u've change a little bit
especially in past week.
i Can'T hold Your Hand all the time
you broke ur promise saying we can capture picture of us as many as i want
i can't tag a picture of u(what wrong with it???i thought u love me???malu, segan, takut ader org marah???)

if you love me, just say u do,
i've tired of waiting
scared u've change and there nothing happen betwee us.
my decision is depend on your decision
if u want me, i'll stay,
if u don't want me and u want me to keep entertain u
i DON'T want that,
I'm looking for a serious relationship, with commitment
please let me free if u don't love me

A Gurl asking A Boy

A girl asked a guy
if he thought she was pretty

he said...no.

She asked him
if he would want to be with her forever....
and he said no.

She then asked him
if she were to leave would he cry,
and once again he replied with no.

She had heard enough.
As she walked away,
tears streaming down her face

and he said....


You're not pretty you're beautiful.
I dont want to be with you forever.
I NEED to be with you forever

And I wouldn't cry if you walked away
but I'd die when you walked away from my life

Cabaran!!!Dugaan!!!

cabaran cabaran cabaran..
hidup nih memang penuh ngan dugaan....tak org pon bole lari dari dugaan..semua org ader masalah masing2..kiter pon tak ley nak agak biler kiter akan dapat masalah...semua nyer kiter tak ley jangka...
keje,blaja,kawan2, nak lepas idup 1 hari pon bole dikatakan sebagai cabaran bagi seorg manusia...
aku nih pon tak terlepas dari masalah...dengan masalah kewangan nya, masalah masa lalu nyer, masalah cinta nye..huih..kalu aku nak senaraikan mau berjela2 panjang nyer...tapi enough pasal masalah nih....bagi aku tuh semua cabaran.
cabaran utk aku kuar di dunia baru..cabaran utk aku bole hidup berdikari tanpa meminta bantuan org lain...aku bukan nak cerita pasal masalah...tapi aku nak cerita macam mana nak hadapi semua nih...setiap org ader cara tersendiri nak menghadapi masalah...tapi bagi aku..nak menghadapi 1 masalah tuh senang jer...kiter mesti redha ngan aper yg terjadi..sbb bagi aku benda nih sume memang ditakdir kan utk terjadi...utk kia blaja sesuatu yg baru...contoh nya...cam kaki kau nih...dua2 ibu jari kaki aku nih dah retak..aku still control cm takde aper2 yg berlaku..kalu aku men bola pon aku akan men ngan berhati2...takde laa men ngan ganas macam waktu dulu..pastu aku dapat blaja pasal game spirit..giler ko...kalu kaki ko dah kena hentak ngan org len sampai retak..kalu org len dah tentu mengamuk n bergadoh..tapi aku tak..aku bole berfikir lagi...alaaah..bagi aku, mungkin org tuh tak sengaja..dah kater men bola..hahahhaha...lagi contoh...aku break ngan awek aku...mungkin ader org tak ley terima...yer laaa....hilang org yg tersayang...aku pon pernah kena gak dulu...menangis tak henti gak laaa...tapi biler pikir balik...mungkin ini yg terbaik...mungkin aku ader buat salah...apa yg aku bole buat...lepaskan jer...blaja dari kesilapan...mungkin kita tak ditakdirkan bersama...kiter kena ingat ALLAH S.W.T tak pernah salah..DIA mencipta kita dan DIA jugak yg tau aper yg terbaik diri kita...betul tak aper yg aku cakap nih???aper sahaja dugaan,cabaran dan kesenangan yg kiter terima tuh...semua nya dari ALLAH SW.T...DIA buat bergitu bukan sebab DIA tak benci kiter dan nak tengok kita sengsara...DIA buat begitu semua sbb DIA sayang pada kita...kita yg patut nya bersyukur kepada nya.

If she could only see

Tonic - If you Could Only see

If you could only see the way she loved me,
maybe u could understand,
why i feel this way about our love
and what i must do
And if you can only see how blue her eyes can be when she says
when she says she loved me.

well you got your reason,
and you got your lies,
and you got your manupulations
they cut me down the size

sayin you love but you don't
you give your love but you won't.

If you could only see the way she loved me,
maybe u could understand,
why i feel this way about our love
and what i must do
And if you can only see how blue her eyes can be when she says
when she says she loved me.

seems the road less traveled
show's happiness unraveled
and you got to take a little dirt
to keep what you love
that's you gotta to do

sayin you love but you don't
you give your love but you won't.

you streching out your arm for something that are not there

sayin' love where you stand
you give your heart when you can

If you could only see the way sheloved me,
maybe u could understand,
why i feel this way about our love
and what i must do
And if you can only see how blue her eyes can be when she says
when she says she loved me

sayin you love but you don't
you give your love but you won't.

you streching out your arm for something that are not there

sayin' love where you stand
you give your heart when you can

If you could only see the way she loved me,
maybe u could understand,
why i feel this way about our love
and what i must do
And if you can only see how blue her eyes can be when she says when she says she loved me